story notes

below are some scattered notes and reflections on the above stories and their process. for transparency, i also included how often they were rejected and approximately when i finished the first draft.

taidu (5 rejections; first draft ~nov 2021; accepted apr 2022): it’s really tough to complain about an award-winning story but looking back i can see now how raw (as in, underdeveloped) my writing was then, compared to the writer i became a year or two later. i think i would have made a few different choices if i went back to this. but taidu (and carve, for publishing it) will always hold a special place in my heart. i talk a little more about the story here and here. one additional little nugget though: the setting of this story, in my mind, was jiuzhaigou.

oatmeal (5 rejections; first draft ~mar 2023; accepted oct 2023): oatmeal grew out of a confluence of factors: practicing some poetry (this flash was originally a prose poem) with a relative; my own experience in grad school with a bad case of dermatitis and needing to explain to my roommate why i needed to take an oatmeal bath; and my sense of cultural loss. the original version of this story just had the grandmother napping in the tub. it wasn’t until i encountered some more speculative publications, like hex, was i inspired to jump that realism gap into something more fantastical. i’d previously gotten a kind note from hex, inviting me to submit again with something more speculative so when they re-opened that september, when i was in the throes of newborn care in the wee hours of a sleepless night, i did some last second editing and submitted this grandma dragon.

dead dog (56 rejections; first draft ~jun 2020; accepted apr 2023): woof. process-wise, rejections are part of publishing but 56 is a doozy, and a pricy one. the culprit was a poor process when i first started to seriously submit my work. i’d submit in massive waves without waiting for a response and only making minor edits in between. it wasn’t until i’d been rejected over 50 times that i consulted my brain and decided to make significant changes. namely, to add more moral peril to raise both the stakes and the complexity. by then, it was january 2023. i sent the new version out to 3 litmags after that, one of which was the minnesota review, who were kind enough to pick it up.

this story is based on a prominent professor i had in graduate school. when he asked me to be his research/teaching assistant, i was ecstatic to learn from him and, of course, to burnish my resume. while i did learn a lot, he gave me an unusual assignment once. i was to go to his home and change out all the cds in his 100+ cd changer for others from the even larger collection on his shelf. every cd was either classical or opera. all except for slot 1, which was to remain unchanged and stay in slot 1. it was pink floyd’s wish you were here.

circuses (54 rejections; first draft ~sep 2022; accepted sep 2024): [tbd]

maneater (19 rejections; first draft ~mar 2023; accepted feb 2024): [tbd]

pigboy and his artificial jesus (5 rejections; first draft ~mar 2024; accepted sep 2024): [tbd]